Broken

Mentally and physically this week. That's me. No Cat either. :c( And also the feeling that no one (well, a paticular one) has any understanding about how difficult this latest "complication" has been. I've said it before-- I feel like I wasted my twenties to being fat I have no desire to waste my thirties to pain, but every choice I make just seems to bring more of it. Again, mentally and physically.

Not my fault. Why does that sound like a cop out today?

Lots of accusations this week about not doing your best. Kind of hard when you'd be willing to cut off your own leg with a butter knife.

I had my pre-op this morning. Same PA as last year. Nice guy and was very willing to show me the xrays when I asked. He started pointing out all the foriegn bodies in my joint. Umm, add him to the list of people who don't read your chart before walking in the door. Dude, the foriegn bodies the surgeon is removing are in the soft tissue surrounding my tibia. But thanks for reminding me how fucked up my knee is.