Sunday, May 30, 2010

What I did all day

I rested and iced. I also went the bathroom and it almost killed me. I took a peek afterwards because I felt like I had broken open. Everything was fine, but shocking to look at... even when reflected in Gram's beautiful old antique hand mirror.




I prefer this view. I'm totally freaked out by how violated I look underneath the compression garment.

Taking a moment to acknowledge this sucks and moving on. Just need to have faith in my body and my ability to heal and cope.

Tomorrow is a new day.

5 comments:

Lori said...

Every day that goes by is a further step in the healing process. You can get through this, and it will be all worth it :D

Kenlie said...

Your body will heal, and it will be worth it all. I know you already know these things...looking forward to that time!

Anonymous said...

Your feelings make me recall going through labor before holding each of my beautiful babies. Just as giving birth to an infant requires the application of special coping (and, very important, nurturing), and patience throughout the childbirth and healing processes, so too does giving birth to oneself.

Truly the task is no less important, no less sacred.

Thanks for sharing about your struggles, as well as your pleasant discoveries. Both are necessary for a happy life.

-Robin

Unknown said...

Thank you Robin. Your arrival on my blog has done so much for me. Hope you know that. Gives me ways to think about things that I wouldn't have otherwise. I appreciate your wisdom.

Lori and Kenz-- Thanks for sticking with me, I feel like i have my own little cheering squad and for a non uber blogger, it does a lot for me. Appreciate you guys too, more than you know!

purple_moonflower said...

Hang in there! All the pain will be worth it, once you are all healed and you look at your "new" body. You have come such a long way and it is just another step in your journey. Thank you for sharing your experience, because once I reach goal I know I'll need some surgical intervention.