I do not want to think about food.

I'm looking forward to the diet.  Craziness.  But different things work for different people at different times in their life.  There is no one size fits all way to lose weight.  I expect this to work for me.  I'm ready and willing and it requires very little thought.

I've popped the meal plan into myplate.gov so I could get a look at what I'd be deficient in... Obviously some things, but it's cleaner eating than what I have been taking in.  Just because it's made with organic ingredients and no preservatives doesn't mean it's good for you...  A cookie is still a cookie.

I'm feeling less overwhelmed by the new Momness but still just as busy.  I'm far more concerned with what (or not) and how my daughter eats than my own food.  If I was still single with all the free time in the world it would be different.  But I'm not and so I need to have a different tactic.

I wonder why I feel the need to justify.  I think because all I have read lately is that dieting is bad bad BAD FOR YOU!  Meh, maybe if you are already a healthy weight and heavily influenced by Glossies...  Dieting is not the worst thing you can do for yourself, it has in fact saved many of us.

I realize losing twenty pounds in not going to save my life the way losing 185 pounds did.  I do believe it will make me happier and healthier though.  Less weight it always a good thing on this broken body and getting back the headspace that I'm currently giving to thoughts of "I'm fat" is certainly going to make me happier.  I don't have to accept this body as the way it's going to be for the rest of my life no way.

Date night dinner was AMAZING!  We went to No. 9 Park had an app, main course and dessert. It was just enough at each course to feel happily full at the end of the meal without feeling like I had overdone it.  I was afraid I'd be all MUST EAT ALL THE THINGS knowing that I was starting a diet on Monday but that has so not been the case.

I still believe I am cured, just need to get this baby weight off!