Looking forward to Wednesday's appointment. Hopefully there will be time to chat. I feel extremely well educated about what my options are way down the road, what kind of cartilage defects are good for what kind of surgeries and where the current state of cartilage and osteoarthritis research is. I know ALL OF THIS STUFF about other knees and all that and yet I have no idea where my cartilage damage is. How do I not know that? Frustrates me to read about these procedures... and not know. I assume there is some meniscal cartridge damage because I've read in past surgical reports that it had been trimmed. But other defects? I assume that the articular cartilage is messed up in places but where those places are... I have no idea. Well, I have a general idea, I know where I hurt.
Learned something interesting in Nutrition Education and Counseling this week. It's okay to revise goals. Shows you have been thinking about them. When I said I want to go 5 years being surgery free. I still hope for that... but seriously, I'm a little under a year in and I don't know if I can last. I know I need to try, but I don't want things to get too roughed up in there, I already fear that I may be past the point of no return and that some of these neat biological procedures might not work on me. Most assume that you have no other issues and only one or two defects. We all know that's not me. They also assume you have ligaments. Also not me.
I'm feeling bit sorry for myself today obviously. It's the result of not being able to stand for a show. I can go and hang out at the bar before hand, but the actual show. Yeah, no. Standing and I. We are just not cool. Especially if I want to walk tomorrow.