To me losing weight was the battle. Not the maintenance. I'm pretty comfy (yet not) at 185lbs. I started off the year on the right foot, but don't seem to have the tracking and counting in me. Nor do I currently have the discipline to limit myself to the 1200-1500 calories a day it is going to take me to lose this 20 lbs of baby weight and 10 lbs of pain. Will I ever see 165 again? 155? Yes, but I have no idea how long it will take me to get there. I'm not in a huge hurry. I like NOT obsessing about food... alas, obsession, is what required to lose. I have too many other things to think about it feels like. Losing weight and the subsequent years of maintenance freed up a lot of headspace. I'm not so willing to give it back (albeit even temporarily) to food.
I've been at this for TWELVE YEARS now. January of 2000 was when I first started coming down from 345. Seven years I have been maintaing (except for this baby weight.) And yet I almost feel like I am back at square one. The past, is in the past. This is a new me, a new journey.
I can do it again, I know I can. 20 pounds is NOTHING compared to 185 pounds. But like I just said, apples and oranges it seems to me. There is no comparison.
Time to head off to war.
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Good post Sarah and you are right 20 lbs is nothing compared to 185. You will get to where you want to be when you're ready. I know about the battle in our heads and I'm envious you have had so many years without it. I really do want that for myself. Wow 12 yrs now since you started your journey, you are miles from the woman you use to be for sure. Here's to peace in the head no matter what you're doing, be it weight loss or maintenance. That really is what we all want. Love seeing the pictures of the baby :) sorry I've been missing I need to add you to my blog list so I don't miss your posts.
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