I don't want to maintain 185. I've done a few things to make myself comfortable here and I wonder if that's keeping me from losing. Unlikely. I'd rather be comfortable in my clothes and look good when I walk out the door than be stuffed like a sausage or draped in maternity clothes. I've bought several skirts in size 14 from the thrift store and eBay. Keeping me me is important. Especially post baby.
Maybe I am too far removed from the losing? Maybe I just have to pretend that never happened? But it did, and that journey has implications for my future. I know it's not exactly duplicatable, but there must be something I learned that I can apply to my current situation.
I feel like I have forgotten how to lose weight.