This evening turned into Sunday afternoon

M and I headed to the cape late Friday night. Yesterday I napped. Hard. Today we did yard work and I scrubbed the deck. Now it's about to be lunch time and then we'll head back into the city. I had kind of a morbid thought down at the beach visiting Gram. (Her ashes are there.) What if these are my last three or four days on earth. That's the complication monster in me. It'll go fine though. I know so. Seriously, this has been the best gift ever and I haven't even had the surgery yet. I know I am going on and on about this, but wow. I'm going to be tiny!

PS meet M. M meet PS.

Just a quick note, hafta go help mom unpack in her NEW HOUSE. Go Mom!

Anyways, still very very very happy about all this. Turns out the PS doesn't think I'll need the anchor cut, that made me happy, he does intend to go as far back as he can though. We'll see. I every confidence that this man will make me look very good. M was impressed which was nice, liked the way he treated his office staff, and how he answered his questions. I'll have more to say this evening, it's all in the details.

Must.Feel.Better.Soon.

Yikes, I'm so over this cold. Been forever since I've had one and I need to be over it by Friday.

So I can't believe that in omg a week from now I'll be on my last day as me this way. A lifetime! A lifetime of my shape being this way is about to change. Crazy, still can't believe it's real. I got the approval from the insurance company in the mail yesterday.

Diagnosis: SKIN HYPERTR/ATROPH NEC
Coverage: 15830 EXC SKIN ABD

It was approved by an actual doctor-- I was happy to see that someone qualified was making the decision about my excess skin. I'm kind of curious what the plastic surgeon said but you know, I'm probably better off not knowing. I saw the pictures, that was scary enough.

Not this time

There is this magazine, currently it has a woman in a gargantuskirt on the front cover. They have me in their database and we emailed back and forth a few times earlier this spring and then nothing. :c(

And then this afternoon I heard from them wanting to know about my availability in the last two weeks of June for a possible trip to NYC for a photoshoot. Nice to be a finalist for this story, but not this time. I'll be healing.

His Fault?

Article out on Brady and his return to Football on SI.com. I'm not sure I would go as far as Brady to say that he caused the Staph infection. I'm glad he'll be back this year. I wish him and his knee nothing but the best.

We ate outside

So not the best picture, but pretty standard for a blurry dark iPhone pic.
M and I had our own little Memorial Day BBQ after he got home from the office. Our back porch is screened in-- there is no reason we shouldn't be taking advantage of it. The chairs and table base I've had forever so this weekend I hosed them down, bought some chair pads and a table top at Ikea and presto-- Outdoor dining. The lights are from Target, two different types, one strand is just large glass bulbs, but the other are those red metal flowers with the yellow inside petals. They loop around the top of the porch and provide some lovely mood lighting. I also have a small Weber charcoal grill (that I am hoping to upgrade this week) a wicker chair with pillow for the cat and a hammock chair hanging near the door. I love it. I try to eat meals sitting down at a table. This is sure to help.

Suggest me something

Okay, enough freaking out. On to something constructive. Do you have a favorite book, author, subject matter you like to read about? Let me know what it is, I'll be taking advantage of our Amazon Prime and ordering some reading materials for myself. Let me know what's good in the comments.