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Life kinda sorta just stopped for me last week. I am amazed at how many calories you can burn with tears. Even though I tweeted that I know food isn't comfort-- I still ate. Scale was 160.2 this morning. Some I assume is water weight. Everything I purchased out of a need to comfort myself however I did not finish. Well, except the FroYo version of Half Baked and even that took me 3 days.

This is still an accomplishment five years later. I often say that I know I won't ever put the weight back on if I didn't in 2007. That was before I kept this blog, January of that year started with my third failed ACL having to be removed and copious amounts of IV anti-biotics. In March my Gram died and then two weeks later my uncle died. I was in a ugly car accident and later that year I lost my job and miscarried. And despite all that I was in best shape of my life. I coped with exercise and smart choices.

I still try and cope with smart choices but the exercise escapes me. (that's another post) The move has helped with my activity level and there were several walks this week. One on Wednesday in the snow storm, I walked over a mile to Starbucks-- tears all the way. When I got there I order a latte instead of snack and my usual venti iced coffee. A one pump caramel latte is better for me than a cookie or scone or cupcake no matter how you cut it. Life will continue to happen, the only thing you can do is change how you react to it. Reacting with food simply does not help. I don't know if I'll ever get the exercise thing down, but my body still does what I need it to do-- carry me to places of comfort. Even if that's a Starbucks in a snowstorm.

I hugged Richard Simmons

He called me sweet.

I may have cried at him.

What a wonderful day.

PS. Lori and Jenelle are two of the most beautiful women I have ever met! So glad to have met you ladies today too!

I'm going too!

Looking forward to meeting some remarkable people this week at the Dr. Oz show! I'm super annoyed about the snow storm, but trying not to let it bug me. I'm driving down to NYC tomorrow afternoon with my Mom. However long it takes to get back is how long it takes.

This is going to be neat.

I shopped for chocolate brown things.

I bought a super cute shirt dress at Target today on sale! Love that! New arrivals are often marked down for a brief moment. On the other end of spectrum I also bought a PAIR OF PANTS! omg Khakis! They are dark brown and fabric is a heavy cotton with lycra. Perfect for me and my flaws, which you can see if you click on the picture to make it bigger. That's me in my jeans, not the pants I bought. I love the family fitting room at Target. Great mirror angles and a very large bench for me to sit on. I may have burst into tears at the site of my leg though. I'm in my own way about my knee, pants help me forget.

What I ate. Snacky version.

Breakfast at 9 am
Bowl of Cheerios with 1%
Grapefruit

Snack at noon
Venti Iced with refill
Zone Perfect Bar
Gummy Bears - serving was 140 calories.

Snack at 2pm
Orange
Wafer Cookies
There is an Italian grocer downstairs and they have all the good European cookies. These are dark chocolate itty bitty wafers. A serving is 8 cookies with a 150 calories and nine servings in a bag. Obviously I still like cookies, I just keep the damage to a minimum these days. I can justify 150 calories but 600, notsomuch. It's all about learning to say no, or even simpler than that, being satisfied by less. I can recall eating a half a bag of these things at once in my past.

Dinner at 5pm
Steamed carrots, broccoli and cauliflower
Chicken Curry pieces without the sauce

Snack at 7pm
Dry roasted edamame

Snack 9pm
Bag of Popcorn

What I ate. Better than yesterday edition.

Breakfast at 9am
Bowl of Cheerios with banana and 1% milk
Wafer cookies 150 calories worth. :/
Venti Iced

Snack at 11am
Orange
Small yogurt smoothie

Lunch at 2pm
Salad from salad bar with 2 ounces humus
2 Bananas

Dinner #1 at 5pm
Venti 1 pump caramel Latte
Vegetarian Veggie and quinoa soup

Dinner with husband at 11pm (he had tacos)
2 slices Wasa
3 ounces Fresh Mozzarella
1 tomato
Fresh Basil

What I ate. Coming home.

Yesterday was epic in length and also emotionally and physically draining.

2am
Half a Kashi Crunch Bar
Orange

7am
Rest of bar I had half of while waiting for Oil guy.
Zone Bar

1:30pm
Banana
Orange

5:30pm
Morning Glory Muffin
1 Dark Chocolate Lindt Ball
Few bites of glazed cruller

8:30pm
Grilled Ham and Cheese with tomato

10:30
A couple ounces of chicken
Stuffing
Carrots and celery

Midnight
Icecream sandwich