Feeling better?

Sort of. Still have a temp, but not as high, I'll take 100 over 103 any day. Oddly, my scale is way up. I feel like I am holding on to fluid yet nothing is coming out. :c( Been eating really really tiny bites of not much of anything in hopes that I can keep food down. I just threw up some toast. So.... maybe tomorrow will be better.

In other news.

I am still ill. I am hoping and praying they culture out E coli. Never though I would say that but the alternatives are ridiculously scary to me.

Ricki Lake Gets It

There is an article with Ricki Lake in the latest People. Again, another woman who I think has it figured out. She says she can't believe she used to be a fat person. I'm right there with you sweetie. All it takes is hard work and respect for yourself. Yeah, it's that simple to say and yes I know, the practice is not that easy. But it does work. I think there comes a point where you figure out that eating well and treating yourself right is the way it is supposed to be. That ah-ha moment is key. Some people never get there. :c( Those who don't either gain it all back or resort to drastic measures.

The Huffington Post

So I am not a huge fan of Arianna. She filled in for Rachel Maddow on MSNBC and man was she a snooz. But she runs a good website (if you can get past the fact that Mike Doughty is a contributor) and there are some good reads over there. My favorite is this woman, Irene Rubaum-Keller. She, like me has been there. Her posts are filled with sensible info and the fact that she has kept off 50 pounds for 18 years tells me that she gets it.

Suffering

From a massive kidney infection. I've had a bunch of blog posts saved up but never get around to them. Maybe tonight.

Four Years!

One more and I do I get to say I am Fat Free?

The Cape

We are back on the Cape. M came down before me this weekend. I know he can fend for himself, and was very interested to see him response to what was still down here. Gram died a year and a half ago and she loved to eat. Well, not in her final days, but she loved to have a full pantry. She was on food assistance and held onto everything. Going through her cabenits was something mom has had a hard time with. I get it, I cried this morning over cans of coffee! M on the other hand is well suited to this b/c there is not as much emotional attachment. So now that the two year past it's expiration date juicy juice is gone along with the peeled white potatoes and who knows what else we can clean the cubbards and start from scratch. I even emptied the jars on the counter, I can't imagine how old some of that pasta was. I also cleaned out thecleaning supplies and the food storage stuffs. Next time will be the cooking utensils. So many random pots pans and more small kitchen appliances that you could shake a stick at.

When M came down early he stopped at the store. Atleast now I have him trained to only buy certain types of candy. He was all oooh it's half off. He showed restraint, and bought Kit Kats and Three Musketeers. Thank god he has gotten over the peanut butter cups and Butterfingers! Alas he also bought two things of froyo, Half Baked and Chocolate Fudge Brownie. :(. Can't win them all.

I'm off to the store for morecleaning supplies, to return some cans, hit up coinstar and thengofor a walk. Lyn reminded me the other day that I am making excuses. That's not who I want to be and not who I am. I know some of this is drug transition related, but that's another post.